I wanted to do a quick check in, say hi, prove to you that I will be better about posting again(post-moving to our new house), and hopefully still be inspiring and uplifting! So, I wanted to talk about quotes today. I have a love affair with quotes. Like seriously, I wonder sometimes how many of my thoughts are actually my thoughts, and how many are quotes and thoughts of other people stitched together to make my "thought". I think everyone is full of bits and pieces of quotes, song lyrics, idioms, etc, of other people. It's only natural. They, and by "they" I mean the big wigs of the scientific community, say we become like the three or five people we spend most of our time with, so there must be some truth being quotes and saying and song lyrics stitched together.
Anyway, I've been challenged to come up with my favorite quote, and man oh man, am I having a hard time. I think my problem is that I am too many things. I am not an easy person to box up and figure out. I am an intellect, a dreamer, a fighter, a gypsy, and more. How easy is it to box all of those things together? It's not! So the problem I've been facing, is how do I pick one quote to sum up all of the things I feel and am? I honestly don't know. I'm really struggling here. I think the one that strikes my fancy the most is: We cross our bridges as we come to them and burn them behind us, with nothing to show for our progress except a memory of the smell of the smoke, and the presumption that our eyes once watered. -Tom Stoppard.
Every quote has a story, and I think my story for why this is my favorite is: I've recently, in the last six months, made changes about whom I allow in my life. I cut out a lot of people that were negative or closed minded, and I received a lot of backlash for it, because it's not "normal" to cut people from your life, so they thought I was being mean. But the thing that none of these people considered was that I was trying to find my own peace of mind, my own happiness, and my own life. Their negativity or closed mindedness was cutting into my soul and eating away at the happiness I was trying to cultivate. So, I made the executive decision to say, this is my life, I get to live it however I want, and if you don't like it, tough. I crossed all of those people from my life in one day. I don't mess around. When I'm done, I'm done. Don't expect me to play nice and pretend for your sake. I'll pretend I'm happy and try and make it work for far longer than I should, but when I'm done, I'm done. And I am a firm believer in burning bridges, to the dismay of some of those closest to me. But, to me, I feel like you should burn your bridge, because if it's in that bad of shape anyway, it's not safe to cross it. So yes, burn it, burn it to the ground, and if and when there comes a time when you want that bridge again, you can do your part to rebuild it; but that way there are no disillusions that the bridge you're rebuilding is the same bridge as before. You have let the other person know that the behavior from before will not be tolerated, and it is then up to the both of you to determine if you can change and have the kind of relationship you want. Overall, I am so much happier now. I got rid of people and perspectives and situations that did nothing but perpetuate drama and criticism. I am far happier now than I was then, I am living the life I want with people and groups that help perpetuate that happiness and inspiration. I am inspired daily to be a better me. I think about the people I'm associated with, and I'm proud of the group I've put together. I'm proud to call those people part of my circle, because they help better me. They encourage me to be the best person I can be, and they tell me when I've messed up, but most importantly, they love me. And that, the unconditional love, with no strings, no judgments, that is what I want my circle to be. The pain I went through in that initial bridge burning, all the tears and smoke in my lungs, served to bring me to this point where I am stronger and happier for the choices I've made. And I won't apologize for that.
But to be honest, I think that my favorite quote changes depending on where I am at that point in my life. I know in the past some of the ones I've loved are:
- I must be a mermaid. I have no fear of depths and a great fear of shallow living.
- Be humble for you are made of earth. Be noble for you are made of stars.
- The things that make life worth living can't be thought, they must be felt.
And those are just a few, but yeah, I think that as with many things in life, your favorite quote will probably, and should probably, change according to where you are in your life. But, I think that there's usually one piece of common ground that ties all of those quotes together, and I think that that small tie that runs through all of your favorites, is your truth.
So today, I would like to encourage you to go on Pinterest or wherever you go to find inspirational quotes or literary quotes, and look around. See what speaks to you. Find your truth. I am still finding my truth, but it has to do with fighting to be the person you know in your heart you are, despite what other people say or think, and being strong enough to live your life the way you need to live it to be happy, despite what the world says. I wonder what your truth will be. Let me know in the comments what you find. I'll be waiting on pins and needles! Here's a link to my Instagram in case you want to look for quotes there too! But, that's all for now, so...
Xoxo
Kayla
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