Introspective Big Magic

Hello Lovelies,



I know it's been forever and a day...and that's because there's always something crazy happening in my life, and today is no different.  But the reason I've been inspired to reach out today of all days, because obviously it's been hectic and crazy for the last however long since I last wrote to you, the reason I chose today, or that more specifically, today chose me, was a combination of things, really.

First of all, I've been reading...no, let's be honest, the thing that really started this was feeling like I need to get back to who I am.  I feel like when I first got to Washington, life was hectic, but it was pretty good.  And I feel like I'd made a lot of progress and I was really becoming the person I wanted to be in terms of being very centered and spiritual, not religious per se, but spiritual.  And I feel like my time here in Washington has been not what I expected.  It has taken me in a completely different direction, to the point that I feel just like I did when I lived in California; maybe a little bit better, maybe not so angry at the world, but nonetheless, very similar.  And I wanted to get back to that place of peace and contentment that I had in my time in Oregon, at the end of my time in Oregon.  I won't lie and say that life in Oregon was all sunshine and roses, no life in Oregon was shit show after shit show, but towards the tail of end of it, there was some real progress being made.  There were real successes on my end that have been, because they were successful, slightly swept under in the rug in terms of, "Well, we already did that, so moving on, what's next in life?"