Life Happens

Hello Lovelies,

I just wanted to give a quick heads up, let you know that I'm not dead!  I know it's been awhile, but well, there's been some chaos in the last few weeks that took precedence over writing.  What started as stressful enough of a time because of a move, has turned into a giant stress ball.  So, I'm trying to find the positives, and I'm trying to keep thinking positively, and know that everything is going to turn out the way it's supposed to, but that's been really hard these last few weeks.


So, probably the least stressful thing so far has been me starting a new job.  It's sad when that's the LEAST stressful going on in my life.  Ugh!  But in all honesty, it really has been the easiest part of my day.  I go to work and I can't deal with the other stressors in my life because I have to focus on learning a new company's policies and procedures.  So, I am grateful for that, and I'm grateful for the new company, because it's honestly a place that as soon as I walked in for my interview, I fell in love.  Do you ever get that?  Where you just know, this is it?  That's how I felt, and then sure enough, everything about it was spot on with what I needed, and the best part, they offered me the job.  So now I am working for a company that I actually can really see myself getting behind, and for the first time in I don't know how long, I'm actually excited about working for them and I want to put down roots.  It doesn't hurt that the people are really friendly and easy-going as well!  The people can make or break the job, believe me, I've had jobs where the people broke the job for me.  The last group I worked with was so awesome, I felt like I instantly fit and we were just meshing super well, so I was nervous to leave, thinking I'd miss it and never get that back; this group isn't quite as good of a fit, but they're still really awesome in their own way.  Overall, I'm really happy there.



Then comes the move.  Duh, duh, duhnnnn.....queue the terror music.  We've moved a million times before, okay maybe not a million, but we've moved eight times.  We kinda know what it's like to move, and we kinda know how to pack and unpack in record time.  This move has been the weirdest move ever.  We moved to a temporary house for a month, and then moved here, without really unpacking at the temporary house.  So, getting stuff here wasn't the problem, the problem has been unpacking and figuring out where everything is, and where everything goes.  I don't know how many things we've thought we lost, only to find later in some random box, probably because we needed it at the temporary house and then didn't remember which box to put it back in.  So we've been dragging on getting unpacked, which I normally have done in, at most, three days.  Then comes the fact that when we moved, we got rid of most all of our furniture.  We didn't like a lot of it, it wasn't our style, or it wasn't really functional, so we got rid of most all of our furniture.  Well now, joyous now, we get to figure out what to do with all of the stuff that we previously had a home for, but now do not, because we didn't bring it with us.  So we have piles of dvd's or video games or books, you name it, we got it, as we wait to figure out what kind of home we can provide for it.  We've just now gotten the books and video games done, but dvd's...oh man, I know that's going to be bad.  The other lovely stressful piece is the financial side of that that comes from now having to buy all new stuff to sit in, store stuff in, put stuff on, etc.  It's just a giant stress ball.



But the worst part yet, I still can't bring myself to tell you guys, because I may have an emotional breakdown if I do.  My family unit may never be the same.  That's all I can say for now.  But, so on top of everything else(moving, living out of a suitcase, trying to figure out new furniture solutions, unpacking, starting a new job, and everything else!) I have to deal with the devastation of potentially losing a family member.  My days are spent unpacking and stressing over how to fix what's gone wrong and what steps I have to take, what steps I can take, and how much I can actually do.  The extra delightful thing, my birthday was Sunday, and we got terrible news that same day.  So my birthday was covered by this dark cloud.  Then I found out late last night, that the news I was given probably wasn't accurate, but that still doesn't fix the situation we're in.  It's just a mess guys.  I could really use your positive energy coming my way.  Please, if you can, send positive thoughts to myself and my husband, that we can continue being on this crazy stressful path together, leaning on each other, and finding strength in one another, and that we will get our family unit back to the way it's supposed to be.  I just really need some love and positivity from out there.  I don't know the last day I haven't cried, and that's saying something for me.  So, please, send your best thoughts and wishes, let the universe work in my favor, I really need that.



But yeah, sorry, I know that was just a giant rant about how stressful my life has been, but I think I just needed to get it out.  And I hope that it helps you guys see why I haven't been writing, it's not because I don't want to...it's because there's so much going on, I literally don't have time.  But!  On the flip side of all of that!  I want to say, this time in my life is setting up to be the best time, minus the huge family concern.  Starting my new job, I love it!  I love the company, I love the commute, I love the hours, and so far, I love the people.  Then, the move, we're finally settled in our own house, not sharing a house with anyone, not living in a temporary place, this is our home!  Jordan and I had been sharing our house with friends for the last year and a half...that's a lot of time to not have your house to yourself, for those of you that have never done it.  So yeah, we're really excited to have our own place again, finally!  There are just so many little things that we are so grateful to have back to ourselves again.  It's awesome, really!  And then, the other piece of that puzzle, we are getting to buy all new furniture!  Yay for the fact that we are finally designing our house the way we want, not the way we think we're supposed to, or the way people have always done it.  We are finding pieces and ideas from Pinterest and Etsy and saying, "Let's do that!"  It makes our house so much more unique, and I think it's such a better reflection of who we are than any other house we've had, and we're not even done yet!  The other plus side to buying all new furniture, we have the money to be able to afford whatever new pieces we want!  That's huge, so many people want new stuff but can't afford it.  We are blessed enough that we are able to buy stuff just because we like it.  We don't really have to consider the price tag too often, if it fits with what we're going for, we can get it.  Plus, it was just my birthday!  I got some awesome gifts, talked with a bunch of people that love me, and had some awesome food!  And....my amazing husband bought me a necklace from Tiffany's!  That's right y'all, I have my first official piece of Tiffany's swag, haha, it's amazing!  I've wanted something from Tiffany's since I learned what it was, so the fact that I finally have a piece, is huge to me!  I am so beyond thrilled and I love it!  It's beautiful and dainty and understated and so perfectly me!  So, all in all, when you step away from the breakdown that is potentially losing a family member, life is going super well, it just happens to have this giant shadow over it for the current moment.  But, I am trying to stay positive and remember that everything is going to turn out the way it's supposed to, and that life is going well in so many ways, that I at least have plenty to be thankful for.



And I guess that's my message for today: we spend so much time dwelling on what's going wrong in our lives, instead of dwelling on what's going right!  Sometimes, like now for me, there's a huge issue that can't really have a positive spin, but everything else in life is coming together to allow me to focus on doing what I can in the situation I'm in.  The stars are aligning in so many ways, I just need the last few to come together so that I don't lose the family I've grown to love, and my life will be the best it's been in probably close to two years.  So, this is me, with my back against the wall, dealing with stress after stress after stress, saying "No more!".  I will be positive and remember all the good things that are happening in my life and I will remain optimistic that the Universe is caring for me, and it will provide.  If you're going through a tough time, please don't lose hope!  I know everyone falls down, but you don't drown by falling in water, you drown by staying there.  So, pick yourself up, dust yourself off, wring out your hair if you're a little water-logged, and get back to finding the positives in life because the Universe will conspire with you if you just let it.  Focus on the good, focus on what you need, see yourself getting it, and the Universe will give it to you.  And if your life is maybe just ho-hum right now, you're not really feeling like there's anything really exciting going on, it might be that you are providing the light and guidance that someone else desperately needs.  So, that's all for me, Loves.  I will try to be more active on here! I'll keep you in the loop of what craziness comes up next.  Just remember, find the good in everything!  And!  Break the habit!  Our greatest addiction is talking about our problems, let's try talking about our joys.  There's another great quote that says(excuse the gross colloquialisation-I honestly don't even know if that's a word or not, but it works), that instead of being "anti" something, find a way to turn it into something you are "pro" instead.  So, instead of being "anti-war", be "pro-peace", instead of being "anti-poverty", be "pro-equality", you get the idea!  Find something to be "for" instead of "against" and your whole mindset will change.  Anyway, that's all for now!  Have an amazing, please send love and light and positivity to me, and I'll do my best to keep it up on my own too!



xoxo,
Kayla